i wanted to see how ive changed and what i went through, but then i stopped and realized that was the past and why would i want to relive old memories? 

and now i realize that i need to stop dwelling on the past with most things in my life. i need to forgive myself to, from all the mistakes ive ever made and just understand that im not a bad person anymore.

i need to move on and just really focus on myself for a while. i think this summer will be a good time to do so